Books Social anxiety

I’m me and that’s all right

At the end of December, I wrote some new year resolutions. I don’t think I’ve kept any of them, including the first:

  • Read at least one book every week.

But I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t want to read a book every week. I want to savour books. I want to remember parts that made an impression on me, and think about what they mean. To me.

The book I’m reading now, Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert has a lot to say and plenty that I want to remember. Like: when you interrupt others, you’re saying, “I believe that what I am saying is more important than what you are saying.” And that has to mean, “I believe that I am more important than you.” Not that I do much interrupting, but it’s an insight into those who do.

The book is also full of jokes, which also say something. Like: “Sometimes the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else.”

And I’ve never read anything before that makes depression humorous. Maybe I should try that with social anxiety.

I’ve taken so long to read this book that I’ve had to renew it at the library. But I’m totally OK with that.

I’m also not beating myself up over not keeping up with the 80,000 words in 80 days challenge. I can’t write that fast – especially when I also have to work out what’s going to happen next in my story. But that’s OK, because joining that group of writers has made me think about my novel every day and I’ve got further with it than I would have done without that incentive.

And maybe I haven’t kept any of those resolutions, but I’ve kept another one: not to hate myself to love myself.

Do you love yourself?

Books Social anxiety

New year, new theme, new me?

A new year is dawning. Time to make changes.

I think I’ll be tweaking the appearance of my blog some more. I think it could be better, but at least it’s different.

What else is going to change? I was pleased to see I didn’t blog about new year resolutions last year, so I don’t have to blog about non-fulfilment of them. Next year, I won’t be so lucky because I’m going to list my resolutions here. What will I do if I forget to carry them out? Well… I could always delete this post later. Shh – don’t tell anyone.

This blog (as is now confirmed at the top of this page) is about writing and social anxiety, so my resolutions are, too.

My writing resolutions

  • Read at least one book every week.
  • Write something (chapter, ½ chapter, blog post, small stone) before accessing social media on every working day.
  • Work on WIP every working day until it’s finished.

My SA resolutions

  • Talk (offline) to someone outside the family every day.
  • Write an automatic thought log once per week.

Well, I’ve written them. I hope I can keep them up for a year.