Author, editor, attempter of this thing called life. Social anxiety warrior. Re-Connections, a collection of short stories, published with Ocelot Press, 15/10/2025.
Love was all around the lake. Lovers’ Lake, they called it for miles around. Lazing on its banks on this warm, sunny afternoon were at least fifty couples, each oblivious to the others. Levelling their eyes, each at one person only, they revelled in this bliss, oblivious to the rest of the world.
Lots of people in the village didn’t have partners, so they stayed away from Lovers’ Lake and waited for the day they would finally find a lover and be able to visit Lovers’ Lake. Legends of its beauty fired their longing. Lucifer, however, refused to stay away. Lucifer was the village idiot.
Laughter rang out when Lucifer arrived to sit alone by the lake. “Lucifer, go home. Lover have you none. Leave us lovers alone.”
“Lucifer won’t go home,” said Lucifer. “Lucifer is in love.”
Laughter again.
“Life is what Lucifer is in love with. Life in the form of birds and trees and everything that’s alive.”
Lucifer took his place by the lake and gazed at life, his true love.
Level-headed village people stopped calling Lucifer an idiot.
Jay entered the room and stopped dead. “Jerry! What do you think you’re doing?”
“Just doing my homework, Mum.”
Jay surveyed the scene, while attempting to banish thoughts of extra work from her mind. Jam neatly spread all over a jumper laid out on the bedspread. Juice in a glass jug standing on the jam at a precarious angle. Jelly wobbling on top.
Jutting out from the mess was a sheet of paper. Jay picked it up and read the typed words. “Join disparate items together to make an abstract sculpture.”
Jay turned back to the mess. “Just one thing; they’re not disparate – they all begin with J.”
“Is it my job?” she asked, her voice hesitant and controlled, as if trying not to break into a whine. “Is it because of the crazy hours I have to work?”
“It isn’t that.” Isaac shook his head, wishing he could escape from this place, knowing he owed Irene this final meeting.
“Is it my untidiness? I could work on that.”
Isaac again shook his head. “It’s not that either – although untidiness is a trait that’s also not in your favour.”
“Is it the music I play? I can turn the sound down or listen on earphones.”
“It’s not the music.”
“I don’t know what else it could be. Is it not possible you could give me a hint?”
Isaac let out a painful sigh. “It’s your insistence that I begin every bloody sentence with an I. It started as a joke. It’s no longer a joke. It’s too much for me to bear. I can’t stand it any longer.” Isaac raised his voice, causing all the people in the restaurant to look in his direction. “I simply can’t stand it.” Isaac stood up.
“Isaac, I… I… I…”
Isaac turned and left the restaurant.
Inside still, and with nothing better to do, all the onlookers turned back to their companions. Interestingly, they all found themselves beginning every sentence with…
“Hello. How do you do?” He extended a hand towards me.
“Hello,” I said, backing away from the offending hand.
“Have no fear,” he said. “Habits, in our culture, include shaking hands when meeting.”
“Ha-ha.” However I tried not to show my nervousness just didn’t work. “How silly of me.” Having said that, I determined to show my courage. Hooking the wrist of the extended hand with both of mine, I gave a mighty shake.
“Hey, what are you doing?” He seemed surprised; I couldn’t think why. Had he not told me to shake his hand?
“Hand… shaking,” I blurted out.
He’d previously had the corners of his mouth turned upwards. Happy, I’d learnt that meant. Had he stopped being happy now? Had I made him sad?
Holding his shaken hand in the other, he said, “I’m afraid I don’t think you’ll be suitable for the position of spokesperson for the Prime Minister. Have you considered applying to be in slapstick comedy?”
Q: Hello, Miriam. I’m delighted you could join me today.
A: I’m delighted to be here. Thank you for inviting me, Miriam.
Q: Tell me about your novel, Neither Here Nor There.
A: It’s a light romance, set mostly in my home town of Jerusalem and partly in my former home town of London.
Q: Oh come on, it can’t be that light with such a background. It must involve terrorist attacks and killing and all those scary things that go on all over the Middle East.
A: No, there’s none of that in my novel.
Q: So it’s a utopian sort of novel – the way you’d like your country to be.
A: No, it depicts everyday life in present times, just as it is. The fact is, there’s so much more to life in Israel than those troubles you hear about on the news. We follow the news, of course, and we’re so very sad about the lives that are lost. But most people go about their lives without encountering any danger at all. And so the story of Esty and Mark and all the characters in my novel is perfectly realistic.
Q: So you’re saying this is just another romance.
A: No. While it can be read as a simple romance, it also brings up some complicated issues – issues most readers will recognise in some form or other.
Q: What sort of issues?
A: Arranged marriage, living in a closed community, escaping from a closed community, emigration, life-changing decisions.
Q: Yes, some serious issues there. Tell me about the closed community in your novel.
A: The haredi community. I call it that for simplicity, although within that group are several sects, some very much opposed to others. They live in various parts of the world. Many of your readers will have noticed their distinctive dress. The men wear black hats, black suits and white shirts, with tassels hanging over their trousers, and they have beards and sidelocks. There are some who wear stranger garb. The women always wear long sleeves and long skirts, and married women cover their hair with scarves or wigs. Some people even think that all Jews or all Israelis dress like that.
In Jerusalem, they used to live only in specific districts like Mea She’arim, but they’ve expanded to other areas due to lack of space. The men often don’t work, spending their time studying the holy books. That leaves the women to support their large families, as well as caring for children and doing the housework.
Q: The women must feel very bitter about that.
A: I don’t think so. Most of them believe that’s how they’re supposed to live and never question it. They’re proud to have husbands who are able to study for long hours.
Q: What about arranged marriage? How does that work?
A: I want to stress that their marriages are arranged and not forced. They’re allowed to choose their marriage partners, but their choice is limited. They’re expected to choose one out of the few they’re introduced to.
Q: Do you think that works?
A: It seems to work as much as our system of random meetings does. The divorce statistics show that. I think a couple can grow to love each other after marriage, although I don’t have first-hand experience of such a relationship.
Q: How do other Israelis regard the haredi community?
A: There’s a lot of resentment. They generally don’t have to serve in the army, and they get grants for studying, which many view as a complete waste of time. On the other hand, they do jobs that no one else wants to do. There are at least four major associations run by people from the haredi community and serving the population at large. There’s one that deals with everything surrounding burials. One that provides all sorts of medical equipment. One that provides food for hospital visitors. And one that picks up and identifies all body parts following an explosion.
I saw an accident once at a junction in Jerusalem. I looked down from the top of a hill and saw a man lying on the road, having been thrown off his motorcycle. Immediately, someone got out of a car and started redirecting the traffic. Someone probably phoned for an ambulance. Two minutes after the accident, a haredi man who happened to be passing stopped his car, took a first-aid kit out of the boot and rushed over to the victim.
Q: Well I think we’ll leave it there. Thank you for coming, Miriam.
Stop press: Neither Here Nor There is on sale for a few days on Amazon. In honour of that, several bloggers will be featuring the novel. I’ll update this post as those posts appear.
“Going home now,” said Greg. “Gotta get me some shuteye.”
“Great,” said Georgina. “Go home and leave me like this, why don’t you?”
“Got some problem?”
Glowering, Georgina said, “Granted you are the world’s most single-minded person, but surely my… problem, as you say, can’t have escaped even your notice.”
Greg eyed Georgina up and down, and down and up. Gesticulating a sense of innocence, Greg repeated, “Gotta go,” turning towards the entrance.
Gasping, Georgina raised her voice. “Gregory, don’t you dare go and leave me here like this!”
“Georgina,” a hint of exasperation guested Greg’s benign being, “get to the point. Give me the reason for this outburst.”
Gall rising, Georgina explained. “Garments of several sorts decorate my body. Garters hug my legs so tightly I’ll never be able to get them off. Grasping my feet are boots several sizes too small. Gloves that make my fingers clumsy are tied so that they’re impossible to remove. Green frogs are crawling all over me.”
“Great the way your face changed colour to match the frogs.”
Giving Greg a cold stare, Georgina continued. “Grosser even than those is the fact that I’m hanging down, my legs tied to a metal bar.”
“Great photo shoot. Goodbye then.” Greg made for the door.
Georgina screamed. “Grr!”
Greg returned. “Go easy, I was only joking. Greg released Georgina from the metal bar and set her on her feet. Grappling with the knots, he untied all the garments and animals. Grinning, he eyed her all over and said, “Generally back to normal. Gotta say, you looked more special before. Gonna join me for a bite to eat?”
Georgina slapped Greg hard on the cheek. “Grossed out, I am, with your jokes. Going now. Goodbye.”
Greg stood still, eyes open wide, watching Georgina as she marched to the door. “Going? Georgina, I love you.”
Today’s visitor doesn’t even have a name in the novel he comes from: Free to be Tegan by Mary Grand. I’m so glad he has one now and delighted that he’s agreed to share such a beautiful letter, written to Tegan by a stranger on a train.
Dear “woman on the train”,
My name is Andy Davies. I am an art teacher and I am the man who sat next to you on the Birmingham train last March 1st. You might remember me as the man who embarrassed you by buying you a cup of coffee!
This letter is a confession. As I mentioned, I am an artist. What you have never known is that as soon as you left the train I drew a picture of you. You see your appearance was so extraordinary, not just your clothes but your whole demeanour. I had to capture you on paper. You were sat stiffly next to me trying not to let our arms touch. Your body was tightly bound; legs squeezed together, arms jammed against your body. One red sore hand was clutching a horrible fake leather handbag and you were gnawing the thumb of the other. Your face was make-up-less, tiny, and lost behind old fashioned tortoiseshell glasses. Most notable was the large plain headscarf which covered most of your head; only a fringe of black hair dared peeked out underneath. You were so fragile and thin. I drew you wearing that extraordinary silver locket I’d seen you take from an envelope. It was very unusual, quite heavy, in the shape of a wheel, decorated with continuous Celtic knots that wrapped all around its circumference. You wore no other jewellery and I was aware that you struggled putting it on but instinctively knew you’d have hated me helping.
It was a good drawing, special even; I had caught you at a very vulnerable moment in your life. Now the thing is, most people love having their picture drawn or painted. However even as I was drawing I felt guilty because I am sure you are not one of those people. In my head I promised that when I got back to the studio I would destroy the picture .
Now for my real confession. You see, I didn’t destroy the picture straight away. I took it back to the studio and worked on it. It was good, really good; everyone who came into the studio seemed to be drawn to it.
Well last week I finished the picture and I was asked to exhibit it. Now this sounds crazy but I sat on my own with your portrait and asked you what I should do. Something terrible happened. You didn’t speak but you just cried. You didn’t tell me how, but I am sure you have been badly abused in some way. I have no right to exploit that.
This letter, with the picture, is about to be burnt. I do hope from the bottom of my heart that one day you heal, find love and then you will be happy for an artist to paint the beautiful, lovely woman you are.
From the embarrassing man on the train, Andy.
Isn’t that beautiful? I reviewed the novel here. I loved reading it and hope you will, too.
About Free to Be Tegan
‘You are dead to us.’
Tegan, aged twenty seven, is cast out of the cult, rejected by her family and the only life she has known. She is vulnerable and naïve but she also has courage and the will to survive. She travels to Wales, to previously unknown relations in the wild Cambrian Mountains.
This is the uplifting story of her journey to find herself and flourish in a world she has been taught to fear and abhor.
Guilt and shadows from her past haunt her in flashbacks, panic attacks and a fear of the dark. However she also finds a world full of colour, love and happiness she has never known before. The wild beauty of the hills, the people she meets and the secrets slowly revealed by the cottage all provide an intriguing backdrop to Tegan’s drama.
The novel is set in spring, a story of hope, new growth, of the discovery of self and the joy of living.
Mary Grand was born in Cardiff and has retained a deep love for her Welsh roots. She worked as a nursery teacher in London and later taught deaf children in Croydon and Hastings. She now lives with her husband on the beautiful Isle of Wight, where she walks her cocker spaniel Pepper and writes. She has two grown up children. Free to Be Tegan was her debut novel. It is to be the first of a series of novels set in Wales. The second will be set on the spectacular Gower Peninsula. She has also published a short book of short stories: Catching the Light.
Mary adds: “Do send feedback to me at marygrand90@yahoo.co.uk”
Four funky fairies flitted around the frightened foal.
From their leader, who wore above-the-knee socks with yellow, green and red horizontal stripes, came soft, delicate tones. “Fear not, Filly. Fortune will favour you and save you from the big, bad wolf. Funky fairies are here to protect you.”
Filly remained fearful. “Ferocious is the wolf, while you are airy-fairy. Fill me in on your plan to thwart the evil wolf.”
“Flouting our rules of secrecy would be unwise. For now, you need to have faith in our abilities. Failure to put your faith in us will be bad for you.”
“For sure I have no other option than to trust you.”
“Fortunately, that is a good option.”
Filly lay down and fell asleep. Forthwith, big, bad wolf appeared high on the horizon, then padded down, each step bringing him closer to the sleeping foal. Five feet from the foal, big, bad wolf stopped in his tracks. Four funky fairies, all sporting colourful, striped above-the-knee socks, flitted around him.
“For heaven’s sake, who are you?” the wolf cried.
“Four funky fairies are we,” said the lead fairy.
“Funny, I thought you were forty flipping fishes, said the wolf, letting out a deafening roar.
Fast as fury, all four fairies turned into forty large fishes, flipping and diving as if they were in water.
Falling back on the ground, the wolf watched, mesmerised by the spectacle. Fully absorbed in watching the forty flipping fishes, he didn’t even notice what was happening around him… until he did. From all sides, water surrounded him, engulfed him, and it was rising.
“Folly this is not,” the wolf spluttered, suddenly very scared. “Fishes, fairies, whatever you are, free me from this water before I drown, I beg of you.”
“For us to do that,” said the lead fish, “you must vow never to hurt Filly the foal.”
“From the bottom of my heart, I vow,” said the wolf. “Filly the foal shall remain safe from my clutches. Friends we will be.”
Falling away rapidly, the water soon vanished completely leaving no trace it had ever been there. Forty flipping fishes turned back into four funky fairies.
For the rest of his life, the wolf remained a staunch friend of the foal, who grew up into a sturdy horse, carrying the wolf on his back when the wolf was too old to move himself.
“Friendless I would have been,” said the wolf from the comfort of the horse’s back, “if I had eaten you that night.”
Fable’s moral: Friendship is better than a full stomach.
Emperor Edward called for his tailor, who immediately stopped what he was doing and rushed to the Emperor’s throne, dropping to the floor before the great man.
“Eating again?” said Edward.
Embarrassed, the tailor wiped the crumbs from his mouth. “Excellency, I only took a quick bite in between sewing.”
“Elevate.” Emotions became uncontrollable as Edward watched the man stand up. Envy turned to rage as he realised the man’s stomach was even larger than his own. Evidently, I am paying him too much and working him too little, he thought.
“Endeavour to concentrate,” said Edward, who always began his sentences with the letter E to emphasise his importance, and expected everyone else to do the same. “Eminent nudists have invited exalted Emperor Edward to their nudist colony.”
Expecting more, the tailor bowed his head.
“Essential as it is for me to attend, I cannot possibly go without clothes on. Even though this is true, I have no wish to offend such eminent nudists. Ergo, I require clothes made of cloth that is so fine, it can only be seen by people who are clever enough to dress at all times.”
Embarrassment swelled in the poor tailor. “Excellency,” he muttered, that is impossible.”
Enraged that this servant who had surpassed him in size was also being so disrespectful, Emperor Edward shouted, “Extermination shall be your punishment for such insubordination.”
Edward sent out couriers to find a tailor who could supply him with the garments he required. Eventually, because everyone else was too afraid to come before the mighty emperor, two small and wily tailors were brought to the great man himself. Edward liked the look of their thin frames.
“Every person who fails to adhere to my commands is exterminated,” said Edward.
“Every command from the Esteemed Emperor will be adhered to explicitly,” they replied.
“Erstwhile tailor was exterminated,” said Edward.
Each day the men assured the Emperor that they were hard at work on the clothes.
Entering into the Emperor’s presence one day, they eagerly handed the Emperor the clothes, which he examined. “Embroidery magnificent,” he said. “Examination passed with flying colours.”
Excitement showed on the tailors’ faces.
“Ensured, are you, the nudists won’t be able to see the clothes?”
“Emphatically so,” the tailors replied.
Emperor Edward paid them for their work and they left.
Every eye of the large crowd of nudists was on the Emperor as he made his entrance into their colony. Exaltation in the form of applause was loud, making the Emperor feel proud. Even so, one little boy’s voice was heard above all the others. “Emperor Edward is wearing clothes!”
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‘You are dead to us.’
Mary Grand was born in Cardiff and has retained a deep love for her Welsh roots. She worked as a nursery teacher in London and later taught deaf children in Croydon and Hastings. She now lives with her husband on the beautiful Isle of Wight, where she walks her cocker spaniel Pepper and writes. She has two grown up children..jpg)
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