Letters from Elsewhere: Casey

I’m delighted to welcome Casey to the blog today. Casey has flown from the pages of Another Woman’s Man by Carrie-Ann Schless with a letter to Max. I feel very sorry for Casey at the moment, but I wonder whether I’ll continue to feel sorry for her as time goes on. Here’s the letter…

Max,

I don’t know where to start. When you left this morning and we said goodbye, although I couldn’t quite hold in my tears. I didn’t really take the reality of what was happening. I have seen you leave that door in the same way each morning for the past four years, a travel mug of coffee in one hand, car keys in the other and always without fail a trusty kiss on my forehead. But I’ve realised sitting here in our kitchen that I may never be in this house with you again. Who knows what the future brings.

I always believed we would make it through anything. We could battle the world as long as we had each other. You were the other piece to my whole and we fit so perfectly. But we don’t, not anymore. I know this and I am not writing this letter to make you feel guilty or to push blame. I’m writing it because I’m scared we’ll never see each other again and I didn’t say anything profound as you left. A lasting memory. Tomorrow I’ll be back in my one-bedroom flat on the harbour in Eastbourne and you’ll end up meeting someone new and starting your own life in our Brighton home. Your Brighton home.

I want that Max. Really I do. I want us both to find our happy. The happiness we had before the miscarriages and the infertility testing and way before we started trying to fix each other over and over again. That pure love that doesn’t ask questions and doesn’t need explanations. We used to finish each other’s sentences and now we don’t even talk. I wish I could turn back time and go to the night we first met. When you were just an idea in the back of my mind and we hadn’t even begun to experience the best we would have.

I love you. I know that’s not enough. I know you love me too. I’m sorry Max. I’m so sorry I pushed you away when all you wanted to do was help, Just like you pushed me away when you thought you had cancer. And I thank you for waiting and supporting me at Nan’s funeral last week and pretending we were OK. I couldn’t cope with facing everybody with the truth. It was bad enough having Mum and Dad in the same room! You always did know how to calm me in social situations.

Before I go I want to thank you for the memories. Thank you for being my friend as well as my partner and taking on my friends and treating them as family too. One day, Max, you are going to make a great Dad. I really want that for you. I’m just sorry it won’t be with me.

How am I going to live my life without you?

Until we meet again.

Casey x

Poor Casey! I do hope things get better for you.

About Another Woman’s Man

What if you’re in love with another woman’s man?

Casey Turner finds herself sad and single again after a seven-year relationship. Having suffered multiple miscarriages, she is adjusting to the realisation she will never be a mum, just as all her friends are all getting married and having children.

Feeling alone, she finds herself drawn to a man she can’t have: her ex’s best friend. Although he has a girlfriend, she can’t stay away. But does he really care for her, too, or is he just having his cake and eating it?

Torn between her feelings and her morals, is Casey destined to follow the wrong path, or will she see sense before time runs out?

Another Woman’s Man is available from Amazon.

About Carrie-Ann Schless

Carrie-Ann lives in South East England with her three children, her cats and her dog with her mum just a short drive away. She is never bored. She fills her time with reading, writing, tv series binge watching, amateur dramatics, dog walks, dinner with friends, the park, taking her children to clubs and the odd glass or three of something alcoholic. Carrie-Ann is a self confessed Social Media addict who can normally be found somewhere floating around the World Wide Web. However, learning to use it for marketing has been a trying experience. She would love you to get in touch by connecting to her on Facebook or on Twitter, Instagram, Youtube and other sites. All can be found at www.carrieannschless.com.