Not funny ha-ha. Funny peculiar. Peculiar for me, that is.
I spent my childhood on the edge of the social circle, always looking for the way in, but never finding it. I spent most of my adulthood locking myself away from society and its imagined dangers. Divulging anything about myself that was a bit sensitive has always been hard due to conflicting voices within me. And also because no one would reciprocate. Why would anyone want to confide in me when they have so many others to choose from?
So, I was surprised when I received the email from J that I mentioned before. Just because it’s unusual for me to find myself in the position of confidante. And I felt that J deserved a serious and helpful reply.
J’s problem was not one that I knew about through personal experience, although I had read about it before. So I was hoping for some responses to my questions. On reflection, it’s not surprising that there weren’t any. Like J, anyone with experience of it probably wouldn’t want to announce it.
Do you tell all or keep things to yourself? How do you decide who to tell?
2 replies on “A funny thing happened to me this month”
another great post…we are all standing on the edges of one circle or another…in my childhood it was that my family wasn’t as rich as the other kids’ parents…that we didn’t live in their neighbourhood where we could hop from door to door and play after school…but my parents made us feel that we were the smartest/the best/the best looking/the most fantastic children in the city…and we believed them…so weight or money or social standing never held us back…we walked in knowing we were as good as anyone in the room…and with that air of confidence those rich kids came looking for us…my personal litmus paper is intelligence…and sense of humour…and kindness…and a good heart…the rest is like the wind in a storm…it soon passes over and is gone
Thanks, Marallyn :). I suppose that was what was missing for me – someone to tell me I was as good or better than them. I intimated that I wasn’t worth knowing and they believed me.